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Ways to Light Within

  There are always going to be questions, always a wondering why. There is evidence more and more that the brain is like a muscle and gets stronger and more capable with use. It is even better it seems when examining why the brain goes places where the light and darkness of a day begins.
  The shadow of the projectionist is one way I have described it. The thought before the thought, the spark out of millions that create the fire. Like why I am trying to write this as they are splitting logs with a noisy machine less than 20 feet from my desk?

  I don't know appears to be the thought of the day and there is so much room for it. As my desk is vibrating from the machine's motor my thoughts are jiggling around in there like jumping beans. In that controlled quantum like state of the fizzing of soda bubbles I find the peace in not knowing. Knowing is not a friend all of the time, in fact, knowing screws us all up. Knowing gives us a choice and a lot of the time we put that into good and bad columns. Good and bad columns allow us to attach labels to actions and even people on those "sides." I don't know is a good way for me to look at all of this and I can tell you that when I did find out. It was better than I ever could have "known."

  So you stack up enough of these labels, either good or bad and gravity starts to take hold. Your experiences shift a few of them from pile to pile, but they are both leaning and all screwed up. So you go through them every now and then and try to organize them because you have some things to slap them on. As you get older and you have plenty of labels, some get reckless with them. They do not examine the subject or person, they just go to the first one that somehow fits. It is a real stretch at times but we would rather do that than admit or engulf the idea that we just don't know.

 The reason all of this comes up is the basis for the fears many have are founded upon their belief that they know what will happen, what course of events will occur. Short of physics, touch this and get burned kind of things, we just don't. To many a folk their lives are made up of expectations of others and what others are thinking or doing at any given moment. Of course we are selfish and self centered so we think that they are calculating actions against or for us, but that is far from reality. Yes, the folly of the societal and instinctual actions on the mind is getting really out of hand. The grandest marketers have won out for centuries, and the newer ones are taking the lead. At this point in life I do not mind at all in saying, I don't know, it is the opening in the brick wall of everything, that leaves room for reality, entertains my sensibilities, and instructs me on the most important part of my journey. To share my stories of my travels, to find ways to light within, and to live, in peace.




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